THX!!!

Really want to say thanks to all the people that wish me on my birthday and thanks for coming for the short yum cha session..
Really appreciate it alotz..
Anyway,, sorry if that day was bit of dull and bored..
I'll make sure that i'll have some sort of celebration after my exam k??
Hahaha...

LAstly, thanks again..

!st paper done

Went for my public law paper this morning in a not very perpare motion..
However, i guess i did my best in doing 4 questions as required..
Huh...
The first thing when i saw the exam question was bit of scary as the questions are easy but then they are very weird...
This is the very first time i've seen such questions in the public law..
Stressed..
Now i really duno whether i could pass my public paper but however, i'll just focus for my next 2 papers which are tort and land..
I guess the papers would be quite stuff this time as most of the exam papers this year are crazy...
Hmmm.......
Anyway,,,
Just want to say here that i've not given up in my exam...
Cheers

I'm being frame up..

Haih..

Recently J. Sun told me that he got few pics from Yuen Han which are quite old..

So i asked him to send 1 of them to me..

And this was it..

And they say that i am looking at the girl while taking a group photo during the band tour when i'm in form 2 or 3..

What i can say is that i was just looking at yuen han basicly..

So stop saying that i was looking at the girl as she isnt hot at all..

ok??

Latest update

Sorry for not blogging for the past few days as i was really busy preparing for my finals...
So lets update you guys for a while..
Basicly, there's ntg much changes in my life as i'm still who am i like the past.. I'm happy go lucky again..
About my love life, ntg much change as well because i really want to take a break from relationship for around 1 year due to the post traumatic stress disorder suffered from the past relationship.. Hahaha....
Anyway, met i've met 1 girl from college and kinda like her as well but the fact is both of us would not be together due to some reasons =)
But still, we chat alot in the middle of the night and we did had good time together during the conversation..
Is kinda fast to say that i really like her after so many things happened in my life so i really want to take some time to analyse whether do i really like her or just finding a scape goat...
Hmmmm...... IS a bit bad of me to say that she's a scape goat but then, she's really a nice girl, understanding and happy or fun to be around with.
Okie.. Stop that part,,,
On the other hands, about studies... Is bit bored now as i really dont want to study...
Hahaha... I'll really do my best in this coming exam...
So wish my luck..
Is freaking 2.20pm now and i'm still at home blogging about my life..
Screwed it..
So is better for me to end here and go to coll now b4 my mum nags me again....
Take care to all of my fellow friends and bros....
See you when i see you...
Ciaozzz

Learnt new stuff

Actually nowadays only i've realised that my philosophy is wrong all the while.
Is true that you should trust your partner and give he/she freedom to enjoy life with their friends as well..
But i guess, at times freedom cant be given easily as they might really changed their heart when they mix around too much with their friends..
Thereby, sometimes is good that you restrict their freedom abit but not too restrictive..
All the while, i ignored my friends' advise of not keeping an eye on her and ended up, i was been playing like a fool..
So indeed, this was a great lesson to me to show me that not everyone can be given too much freedom..
I'm not emo here but when i check on my friendster's profile about the describe urself part, i really laugh at it.. And after seeing her friendster which she received a testi from a guy ( dont know whether is he the bf or what ), i really felt like a fool...
BTW, i'm not telling you guys not to trust your partners here but just want to remind that concern and care more about them especially when they are really close to their friends...
They might still like you but if they hang out with their friends too often or spending most of the time together then, you might end up like me..
So is just a piece of advise here..
Take k..

Lol...

Aun and Wang...
The bet is 1 year right??
Then okie la..
I hereby in a written form to say that i would not have any gf in 1 year time..
This is to prove that i can live with my life without gf..
hahhaa
leng mou??

Got contract d la..
So dun breach the contract ya...
Lunch or Dinner d ar??

LOL... I cant blif that.

Hahaha...
Really could not believe that i could really forget everything so fast.
Although sometimes when i'm alone and ntg to do then i'll think about her but then is just normal d..
I can really focus in my studies and as well as my life..
Hehehe...
Anyway,,
I think that what she said is true also that we are not meant to be together and is good that we should end it early..
This relationship has been delayed for quite a long time and now it has come to an end..
Is good thou..
What i should say that i really cant give her anything she expects me to do so as I cant really dont concern and care about my gf whereabout and i want to spend most of my time with my gf and she did not like it.
Besides that, i felt that she is far too rich and this would be the biggest hurdle in our relationship..
So as now, we had broke up, i can say that i am really relax as i dont carry a burden in my back anymore..
hahaha...
I am so lively now..
Dont get me wrong here.. I am not pretending to be happy or what but i am just relieve...

I'm moving on with my life

Hey,,
Sorry for not blogging these few days..
Cuz i am busy accepting and get used to my new life style..
hahaha....
anyway, she told me that the reason of breaking up is due to a third party so i guess the only thing i could do is just to wish them best of luck..
Although i'm a bit sad in the beginning, but i guess i should felt happy for her as she had chosen a better guy instead of this poor and ugly guy like me =)
Erm....
What else..
Oh,,,
No need to worry about me as i'm really okie d..
But i still felt lonely these few days.. THanks to some friends in college helping me through in this hard time..
Felt good about it..
I guess i'm really traumatise by this relationship and since i've take a bet with OJA n Ah wang...
I would not involve in any relationship for this coming next2-3months..

Lastly,
i just want to say that although i'm quite sad and hurt about this news but then, no need to angry about her as she was just trying to choose her love of her life rather than being with me.. And if i did treat her good then she would not leave me as well too.. So partyly is from my fault..
But lets stop playing the blaming game.. As it would not benefits both parties in the end..

Cheers..
Exam is really close...
Gambate....

Jugdement Day!!

Well..
Today is the day that i supposed to go out with her for a movie which i really doubt that she'll go.
But then neway, last night is really a great night as i spend it fully and happily..
Went out for a drink with Wang, OJA, Sun in Station 1 around 10.30 which we chui sui until around 12.40am..
Then since OJA had finished in his exam then he suggest to go CC again..
Hmmm... I agreed with his plan and we head to Alam damai new cc..
Well.. Is full of malays dere but then the com are really nice as is still new..
WE played till 4.35am and left..
So reached at 5 and after clean up, is already freaking 5.30 so i need to sleep..
Woke up around 9.30 and gave her a call..
She told me that most probably that she would not be able to make it as she was busy..
Erm..
I was quite sad and devastate but then i still pretend to be okie and asked her to confirm with me later..
Left house around 10.30 and went for a car wash and hoping that she'll join me..
Haih....
Call her when i'm at cheras roundabout and she told me that she's at her friend's house now so again.... The same answer was i dont think i can make it..
Wel....
I'm trying to be positive and told her to confirm later again as the movie is 3.20pm and that time was just like 11.10am...
I really dont know what should i do now?? But what i know that i might end up disappointed again and going home with a broken heart..
But is okie.. As i've made my choice of taking such a high risk..
Hmmmm..
Now i've just have to wait another an hour and call her again..
I really want to give up d..
Shiitttttt......
I'm totally lost in the middle of the deep blue sea..
Cant study nor do a single thing in my life..
I guess thats all la...
Guys,, wish me luck..

Really wish that she would reply me

Haih..
Finally i took the risk today and went to The Garden and bought 2movie tickets for this coming Friday where i dont even know will she come?
But i guess i cant really do anything more than this already..
Studies have been bad lately but i told myself that after Friday, i must really concentrate on studies as I really do not wish to disappoint my parents again and moreover since my family is having financial difficulties, then i really should not burden my parents anymore..
Huh...
This year will be really a tough year for me as the 1st half of the year did not go well or according to my plan..
Feel bad about it but i must stay focus and on track to fulfill my dreams.
But for this Friday, i really wish that i can settle all my personal problems so that i would not think about it anymore..
I really lost all my confidence in relationship and maybe i should say that i'm no longer dare to try for other relationship..
i guess this relationship will be my very last relationship in my teenager's life or during my coll life as i am really afraid of being hurt by the ending of relationship..
Haih...
Really confused and sad now but then, this is one of the part in our daily life..
Hmmm... I must stay strong and go through this hurdle....
Gambate Kenny...
I blif that you can do it..

Taking a huge risk

Hmmm..
Not able to study lately again due to other factors..
So thinking of taking a huge gamble now..
I know this is not a right time but i guess i do not have any other choice in my hand..
So,, this friday might be the determination of everything..
Thereby, wish me best of lucks..

Feel so lonely today =(

Haih..
The whole day in college is really quite fuked up as i din really study alot and my heart is feeling 1 kind..
Huh...
I've tried my best to stop thinking about relationship but it still come and haunts me..
OMG...
I had the feeling of being lonely without her and although all my friends around me trying to cheer me up in college but it still failed..
Really felt sorry for them as they did put alot of effort today..
So in order to forget about the loneliness, i borrowed my friend's mp3 to have some songs..
Dengz...
The 1st song i heard is - Ntg gonna change my love for you.. Lol.. stressed.. Then nvm, the second is 25min later. And the list of emo songs go on..
Hahaha...
So without hesitation, i called her and finally she picked up the phone =)
but too bad, guess i did something wrong again as she was quite pissed off..
Lol..
Shitttt.....
But nvm..
My health is getting better already but stil cough abit..
Hope i can get well by Wednesday as i really wana go out wit her on this coming Friday if she can make it..
Pray hard now..
About studies,, i did tried my best today..
And i did manage to finish up my tort notes..
Hehehe...
But i must start memorising by end of this week..
take k..

Will college change a person's life??

Well as stated above, do you guys think that college would eventually change a person's behaviour, life style or even characteristics??
So far, I've seen some of my friends changed right after they entered into college.. So does this due to the new environment or mixing new friends??
Hmmm....
I guess most of the people here knew who did changed after they entered into college so it is not a need for me to mentioned names here..
Sometimes, i really think why they did change?? Culture shock or what?
According to few of my friends, there is a possibility of meeting new friends and so they wanted to do the same things as another or merely following the trend of another..
Besides that, he or she might also want to get attention from the other party or wanted to be the member of that happening group..
But the main concern is that did he or she knew that they had changed??
Most probably i guess they did not notice it or if they did notice it, they dont really care about it as they thought that the change is benefiting them..
Well... At times, i do really wanted to tell them that they had changed alot but it is good to mind your own business as well rather than risking a friendship which you cherrish..
Actually, I'm just bit confused here as these few days i've realised that i've changed too but i'm not really sure is it benefiting me or got me into a worsen position in my life..

So hope my fellow friends will keep on reminding me when i've changed but 1 thing i know that i'm changing into a better person which is i'm not a cold blooded person as i was..
hahaha...

PLS let me get well soon!!!

I'm back here again...
Tonight's dinner was quite awesome as it was steamboat...
Had pretty lotz of foods but then feel regret about it after that as i supposed to be on diet mode..
Hmmm.. After so long, I just managed to reduce 1kg..
OH.. Is so freaking irritating when you did your best and the result is not what you expected..
Stressed....
Anyway, i did successfully call her just now and we did have a quick chat..
It was normal but then i guess it was pretty good...
NVM.. Cut the crap..
By da way, Aun just msg me and ask me to go for jogging tomorrow morning at 8am..
Should i go or rest at house??

Sick???

After since that crazy day where we stay up the whole night, i proudly pronounce here that i am KO...
Having bad cough and flu started last night..
Tried to call her and tell her about it but then she din reply nor pick up my phone call =(
but nvm, just forget about it..
SO after dinner with my college mates, i rush back home to have a nice rest..
Around 11pm, i manage to clean up and head to bed..
Suddenly my phone rangs, I thought is her calling me but too bad, is one of my close buddy in coll asking me whether am i alrite??
So have a quick chat session..
Few minutes later,, a msg received but is not her again =(
but it is from my coll fren as well..
So i decided to call her as i really have ntg to do while waiting for my overdose panadol to be active...
Chatted a lot of stuff bout herself til i guess around 1am b4 i told her that i wana sleep as the panadol is making me swinging...
Really thanks for her companion although i really though wana msg HOn, but i was just scare that i would disturb her that time.. sorry =(
Hmmm..
The whole day i was at home sleeping and trying to recover asap...
So hope that i'll be okie tomorrow as exam is really near...
Take k..

WOW!!

Yesterday was a really freaking tiring day which nearly kill me off physically and mentally..
Reach college around 8am and studied the whole day in coll..
Around 10.30, meet up with Kohs members and then head for chui sui session...
Is indeed a very nice outing cuz we dont really see each other that often..
Since i'm craving for sports lately, so we set to play basketball early in the morning today which is 7am..
Hahaha....
Yes we did manage to play at 7.30am.. =)
Anyway, after yum cha session around 12am, Aun suggested that we should head to cc to try out some games and later, me, Aun and Yeu went for it..
Head to bkt indah but the cc was either close down or off yesterday so we head back to pandan perdana's cc..
Erm... HAd some few games in command & conquer 3 which honestly i dont really like it..
THen, we played RA 2 which is quite funny all the way and the game was interupted midway due to server probby...
Haih.. to avoid getting tension, we played CS as our last game of the day...
OMG!!!! the game was so fun and nice..
But towards the end, before we leave, Aun suggested that we should use only grenade & knife to kill each other..
Hahahaha..
The game ended around 4.45am..
Shit..
Now i've to drive all the way back to sg. long..
Reach house around 5.20am then just manage to shower and a sip of nescafe and head back to MBS for basketball..
Indeed is so tiring as i also cant remember when is the last time i did not sleep for 1day..
Anyway,, thanks for the company..
I had a great day..
Oh ya..
I'm just back from college =)