Sienz

Dont really know why nowadays my sixth sense is freaking fuking good..
I sensed that last night outing would turn out to be a disaster and it indeed turned out like that..
Huh.. Actually kinda sad here as i really want to give the best shot last night since i wont be able to see her anymore but then everything dont go according to the plan again..
The seating sucks and the crowds are suckz..
Haih...
What to do??
I am fated to be unlucky in my life..
Guess since after my SPM, everything in my life turns upside down or the opposite way..
Is it really because that i dont appreciate what i had at the past in terms of financial, partners and friends??
This is a really big question in my mind..
How could i fix all these on my own??
Well,, perhaps, i can say i'm not alone as i got whole bunch of buddies supporting me all the time, but i just can feel that there's still an empty space which is left for her and now, it's unoccupied..
Anyway.. Stil happy here as i managed to fulfill all my promise towards her...
Dont really care whether she'll likes my gifts or not but then just hope that she'll always appreciate my gifts....
It is indeed a romantic fairy tale which ended in nightmare but this is the relationship that i enjoy the most...
She told me that she knew how i felt for being in love so much so just wondering now, why she still want to hurt me even after she knew about the pain and suffering i had??
Hmmmm.... Confused...
Well.. Thats the finale of the journey between me and her...
Lastly..Is not that i dont want to agree with her that at times, fate did play a part..
However, i still somehow believe that everything would not happen if we dont play a part to it.. Agree anyone??
You told me dat i'll wait for you if i really love you
Well.. I should say here that you did worth every time of mine but the problem here is that, would you really wait for me as well??
I'm sure you got lotz of guys after you now so eventhough i wait and wait, i'm sure 1day i could a guy holding your hand and both of you smile happily walking past me.. Right??
I really dont dare to take the risk here..
Hmmm.. Honestly, she's still the 1 i love the most...
Thats the end of the story..
Sorry for making my readers here tensed up and wanted to kill me..
But those who knew me since secondary or primary school. you should know that this is the 1st relationship that i really wanted it to last long...
Really sorry once again and i thereby promised here that
I, Kenny Lee Yung Yee will start a new chapter of life and will study hard for my future..
So i pledge here that i wont probably ended in relationship anymore til the day i left college...